Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Have You Been PAIGE'd?

Have you been PAIGE'd?  Did you receive an act of kindness that has touched you?  Tell us about it here!  Please leave a comment on this post and tell us how the kindness you received in memory of our Paige has left an impact on you!  

To learn more about Paige click on "Paige's Story" right under her picture or visit the Archives on the right side to share in our journey of loss, love, and faith. 

Sunday, December 20, 2015

You've Been PAIGEd

So it's been a very long time since I last wrote on this blog.  Sadly, I was just too busy and life was happening, but Paige's 5th birthday is quickly approaching and I'm overwhelmed with emotions!  Everything inside me wants to do good for my girl.  This year I came up with "You've Been PAIGEd"!  We are asking family and friends to join us in doing an act of kindness during the time frame of Paige's life five years ago.  Please consider doing an act of kindness between January 1, 2016 and January 4, 2016 in memory of our sweet Paige.  I've created little cards with some information and I would love for you to hand the card to the person you did the act of kindness for.  You can comment on here or email me at and I will be happy to send you the Word document of the cards to hand out.  If you live in the St. Louis/St. Charles area I will do my best to deliver cards to those who want them.  Spread the word!  The more kindness happening, the better!  Thank you from the bottom of my heart in joining us in celebrating the 5th birthday of our angel!  Love and hugs!

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Yikes! Has it really been that long?

Time keeps moving and I can't quite keep up! I'm feeling like I'm always two steps behind.  Sadly my blog has suffered from the lack of time and well it hasn't gotten any attention.  I so badly want to keep it up to date because this is my scrapbook, journal, baby books for the kids and all of my best memories.  So I hope to get back to a weekly post.  Starting now!  :). 

Mya is almost 10 months old now and Landon is 27 months.   These two are the best of friends and honestly play so well together... Most of the time;)!  Last night I was putting Mya to bed and Landon followed me into her room.  After I layed her down I told Landon it was time to go.  He said "you  go momma!"  I told home to get out again and walked to the door.  I got to the door and turned around just in time to see him peeking into her crib and say "goodnight sweetheart".  My heart melted!  I love how much he loves his little sister.  

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Glory Day

Today is Paige's Glory day!  Ugh!  We call it a glory day because it's the day she met Jesus.  The selfish momma in me hates this day.   On one hand Paige was relieved from her pain and her many illnesses and cancer, but on the other hand she was stripped from a lifetime of love here with us.   I know she is happy and healthy now and that's exactly why Pat and I made the heart wrenching decisions we did three years ago.  

I like to picture Paige dancing and singing.  I just know she was full of spunk and energy.  I carried her for almost nine full months and the girl never stopped moving!  I'm sure she plays dress up and puts on little shows for her great grandparents in Heaven.  It's these kind of images that get me through.  I love day dreaming about her and I try to picture what she looks like and what her voice sounds like.  I know she is absolutely gorgeous...  I laugh when I think about her voice because I imagine it to be very high pitched and girly.  Love it!  

Paige Jordan, we love and miss you more than we ever thought possible!  Happy glory day baby!!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Paige's 3rd Birthday

My angel turns 3 today.  Instead of my arms she spends this day in the arms of Jesus.  A hard one to swallow but I know she is wonderful hands.  You would think this day would get easier each year, but it only gets harder.  As we experience life with Landon and Mya we start to realize how much we missed out on with Paige.  It never seems fair and I still don't want to accept it, but it's life and I think I'm going to have to.  We talk about our sweet girl with her siblings every day.  Landon prays to his big sister every night and asks Jesus to give her a kiss.  It's the sweetest thing.  Myas face lights up when we say Paige's name as if she understands.  Our children know their big sister I am sure of that.  Today we spent time as a family.  We visited Paige's gravesite, we had a balloon release, we sang Happy Birthday a trillion times, we had yummy pizza for dinner and ended the night with an ice cream celebration.  I bet Paige's ice cream sundae in heaven was delicious!  I cherish the time we spend as a family especially honoring our oldest child.

Paige Jordan,

We love you sweet girl!  We know you watch over us every single day and protect your younger brother and sister.  You continue to impact our lives in so many ways and we live to make you proud.  We hope your birthday in heaven is magical and you celebrate with a big chocolate cake and ice cream.  We love you baby!  Happy 3rd birthday!!!

Mommy and Daddy

Paige's birthday in pictures:

We started the morning off with a visit to Paige's gravesite and taking her a birthday balloon!

Mya had a little talk with her sister... She just babbled away...

We sent balloons to Heaven for Paige...

Landon and Mya gave their big sister a kiss..

We ended our night with ice cream to celebrate Paige's big day..

and Landon thought it was pretty great!

Happy birthday Paige!

Friday, December 27, 2013

7 Months Old

While enjoying the hustle and bustle of Christmas I realized I never posted anything about Mya's 7 month birthday!  Our growing little lady is getting so big and becoming more and more active everyday.   Mya started crawling on thanksgiving day and she hasn't stopped yet!  The kid is a mover and is perfectly content just crawling around and exploring.  She has a personality all her own and has such a sweet disposition.  This month Mya is...

-wearing size 2 diapers but getting ready to transition to size 3
-wearing size 6 month clothes
-crawling all over
-eating two meals a day and taking 4 or 5 bottles
-sleeping pretty well ( she still has those nights where she can't get comfy)
-smiling at anyone and everyone ... She's always smiling!
-growing like a weed.  She is getting so long
-belly laughing like nobodies business
-saying "dada" and doing lots of babbling
-stealing the hearts of many;)

Happy 7 months Mya! We love you!

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!  Although. I can't believe it's already Christmas ... It is!  And now here I sit on Christmas night feeling exhausted but so thankful for my family and friends.   It was another wonderful Christmas and even better with two amazing kids.  Landon is at a great age and could not have been more excited about getting presents and seeing Santa... Not talking too or sitting on his lap just looking!  Mya of course did not understand a thing but was completely thrilled with all the great wrapping paper to crinkle and big boxes to crawl in and out of!  Overall it was great!  My favorite part of Christmas this year was bright and early this morning before Pat or Landon were awake.  Before you read on please know this is my scrapbook, my journal, my heart.   Everything I put on here are memories and moments I never want to forget.  Many will be skeptical of what I am about to share, but it's a moment in my life I never want to forget!  Please read with an open heart ...

At about 7:00 this morning Miss Mya decided she was awake and she was not going back to sleep.   I brought her in bed with me as we listened to Christmas music playing on the TV.  She laid beside me in bed just making sweet, soft cooing noises.  Pat was still sound asleep on my other side and Landon was still dreaming of sugar plums in his own room.  Our bedroom was still very dark because our curtains were closed and our bedroom door was only cracked a sliver not allowing any light from the hallway to shine in. I laid there enjoying the soft music and simply just staring at my sweet little girl.   Clear as day I heard a soft voice say, "mama" and with that our bedroom door opened all the way. I was a little confused as to why the door opened but I sat up and immediately thought it was Landon in the next room waking up and calling for me.  I jumped out of bed and when I got to his room Landon was still fast asleep.  I walked back into our room, cuddled up with Mya, held her tight, and told her that Paige was with us.  I am positive that at that moment I had both my daughters with me.  I've never been more sure of anything in my life.  I could feel her presence.  It wasn't scary or disturbing... It was peaceful and calming.  It was the best feeling.  It was beautiful.  It was the best Christmas present I could have ever received!

I know some will think this is outrageous or just my imagination running wild.  I know what I heard, I know what I saw, and I know what I felt. Paige came home for Christmas... Just for a moment, but a wonderful one.  Thank you sweet girl!  I love you and miss you!  Merry Christmas Paige!