Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween! Landon had a great first Halloween! We hope you had a "roarin" good time too!

Monday, October 22, 2012

Walk for Remembrance and Hope

On Saturday many family and friends took part in the Walk for Remembrance and Hope in memory of our sweet Paige.  It was a beautiful morning (a little chilly) but our hearts were warm as we remembered all the sweet babies that left this world too soon.  It's always so amazing to me to see all the families that have angel babies.  In a way it makes me feel a part of a group and not alone.  Someone else knows my heart, knows the emptiness and the hurt I feel everyday.  Thank you so much to the family and friends who were with us Saturday morning and the ones who were with us in spirit.  We truly appreciate your continued love and support.  Here are a few pictures from the morning.

A family picture before we let our balloons go to heaven to Paige.

The balloons we released for Paige.

Landon making his "funny face".  This kid and his facial expressions:)

Me and my sisters.

The whole group, Paige's Posse!  Minus a few people who had to leave early.

Once again, thank you for continuously loving our little girl!  We are eternally grateful!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Bright Heaven

Last night at 7:00 pm I'm positive that heaven was bright and shining from all the gorgeous candles lit here on earth for all the beautiful babies who lived a life that was way too short.  Thank you so much to all of my family and friends that lit candles in memory of our Paige.  We are so very thankful that you are helping us keep her memory alive!  Here are the pictures of all the candles lit for Miss Paige...

Here is the little shrine we set up for Paige here at our house.  We lit two candles at our house, one for Paige and the other for several very sweet babies in our lives that we lost way too soon!

Here are the candles my parents lit in honor of Paige and other grand babies lost to miscarriage.
This is an infinity candle and I just love how it's light is endless.  Thanks Grandma and Grandpa!

Here is the candle lit at Pat's parents house.  This candle sits on their fireplace.  I love that they chose this candle to light because it symbolizes that Paige is always a part of their home.  Thanks Mimi and Pops!

These two cuties are my niece and nephew, Cole and Kate.  They are holding two candles that they lit.  One is in memory of Paige and the other is for their sweet sibling, Christian, who sadly we never got to meet on this side of heaven.  We all look forward to the day we meet him/her in heaven!  Thank you Evan, Maria, Cole and Kate!
 This handsome little fellow is my nephew, Connor.  He got a little confused and thought they lit a candle for Paige's birthday.  :)  What a sweetheart.  I think he may have even sang Happy Birthday to her.  Love him!  Thanks, Mike, Marcia, Connor and Anderson!
This candle was lit by my brother and sister in law and their 6 kids.  I love this picture because right behind the camera is a photo of all the grandchildren, including a pink balloon for Paige.  My sister in law, Michelle, is very good about always including Paige in birthday parties.  She even included Paige's funeral card in the picture!  What a precious little face!  Thank you Bill, Michelle, Emily, Christopher, Anthony, Izzy, Gabe and Nick!
This candle was lit by a dear friend and coworker, Kristy.  If you look real close you can see the word "inspire" in the background.  Paige inspired so many in so many ways in a very short period of time.  Thank you Kristy!

This candle was lit by my good friend, Nicole.  Nicole has been a rock in my healing process and I am always so touched at the many ways she goes out of her way to remember our little girl.  Nicole often takes her own little girls to visit Paige in the garden.  So grateful!  Thanks Nicole!

This candle was lit by a sweet friend and co-worker and a fellow angel mommy.  My friend, Tabby, lit this candle with two wicks in memory of Paige and her sweet little boy, Landon.  I just know that Paige and Landon are such good friends in heaven.  Thanks Tabby!
I was helping Pat with something and we working on the computer.  When we turned around this is what we saw....
How this sweet boy loves his big sister!

Thank you so much for lighting all of these candles!  This makes my heart so happy!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Candles for Paige

October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  Please take a moment on this day to say a prayer for all the mommy's and daddy's that have lost a baby.  Whether it be an early miscarriage, a stillborn or a baby that lived a much too short of a life the love for these babies is larger than life and each and every one of them will be greatly missed.

The loss of Paige has completely changed Pat and I.  We are two different people than who we were before Paige's death.  Although her short life brought us so much sorrow and pain, it's her memory and spirit that will live within us forever.

At 7pm please light a candle in memory of Paige.  (This is a tradition on Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day).  It will help keep her spirit alive!  We would love to see a picture of any candles lit in Paige's memory... please send them to me at   I will compile all of the pictures and post them soon!


Saturday, October 13, 2012

10 Months

This post is 4 days late, so I apologize... life kind of got in the way.  We are 2 months from Landon's 1st birthday.  How is this possible???  A whole year has almost gone by with this amazing blessing!!!  Not a day goes by that I don't thank God and his big sister for the miracle that is Landon.  We just love him so much and love watching him grow into such an independent, strong willed, outgoing toddler (not quite).  Landon is in to everything!  He explores everything first with his hands and then his mouth.  With that said we have to watch him very very carefully at all times.  He is very quick at crawling and can get from room to room faster than us sometimes. He's quite the houdini!  We have found him behind our bedroom curtains, in the shower, on top of the fireplace, and caught under or on many things.  This past month Landon has really let his personality shine and we just love seeing him so happy!

At 10 months Landon is...

*wearing size 3 diapers
*wearing 6-9 month clothes, starting to pull out some 9-12 month stuff
*crawling all over the place
*starting to stand on his own unassisted
*cruising along any furniture and anything he can get his little hands on
*sleeping through the not
*taking 2 naps everyday
*doing "so big"
*smiling at anyone who will smile at him
*starting to get very attached to mommy and daddy
*eating 3 meals a day and taking 3 bottles of formula
*enjoying watching big kids play and tries to join in

This months pictures didn't go so well!  Landon is always on the move and sitting still to strike a pose just wasn't happening so here is what we've got to work with....


Sunday, October 7, 2012

Pedal the Cause

Today my brother, Bill, rode 75 miles in Pedal the Cause in honor of my dad and in memory of Paige. We are so proud of Bill and even more touched that he would do such an event in memory of our sweet angel. Bill raised a lot of money for the cause and all that money will stay here in St. Louis to help find a cure for cancer. It is truly my hope that no family will have to go through another loss of a young child due to cancer. This past year I watched my dad battle for his life. Thankfully he won that fight and is in remission thanks to the hard work of people like my brother who help find a cure!!!

Bill, thank you so much for being such an inspiration! We are so proud of you! I hope you felt the little angel flying over you today. I know Paige made that 75 mile journey with you.

We went out to cheer Bill on. Here he is taking a break at mile 60!

Way to go Bill!!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012


I'm sure October means many things to many people.  It's Breast Cancer Awareness month.  It's Bully Awareness month.  It's also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness.  October 15th is the actual day of remembrance, however, many use the entire month to remember their angel.  I sat here tonight pondering this very thought.  Really?  There is a month dedicated to remembering my baby?  As if I don't remember her every single second every single day!  I remember her on the 1st of every month (the day she was born).  I remember her on the 3rd of every month (the day Pat and I made the hardest decision of our lives), I remember her on the 4th of every month (the day she went home to Jesus) and I remember on the 8th of every month (her funeral).  I also remember her every day in between.  I don't really need a month, but yet I realize how important Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness is.  Take a step back and just realize how very precious life is.  What a gift from God every breathe we take truly is.  It's a reality check and it's an opportunity to remember our sweet angels but also to hold on a little tighter to the sweet babies we have in our arms. 

On October 20 my family and many friends will walk in Walk to Remembrance in memory of our precious angel, Paige.  I ask that if you have a spare second this month please say a prayer for the families of all the little angels. 

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. - Psalm 139:13-16
We love you, Paige!  We miss you so much and long for the day
 we will hold you in our arms again!