Yikes! Has it really been that long?

Time keeps moving and I can't quite keep up! I'm feeling like I'm always two steps behind.  Sadly my blog has suffered from the lack of time and well it hasn't gotten any attention.  I so badly want to keep it up to date because this is my scrapbook, journal, baby books for the kids and all of my best memories.  So I hope to get back to a weekly post.  Starting now!  :). 

Mya is almost 10 months old now and Landon is 27 months.   These two are the best of friends and honestly play so well together... Most of the time;)!  Last night I was putting Mya to bed and Landon followed me into her room.  After I layed her down I told Landon it was time to go.  He said "you  go momma!"  I told home to get out again and walked to the door.  I got to the door and turned around just in time to see him peeking into her crib and say "goodnight sweetheart".  My heart melted!  I love how much he loves his little sister.  

Glory Day

Today is Paige's Glory day!  Ugh!  We call it a glory day because it's the day she met Jesus.  The selfish momma in me hates this day.   On one hand Paige was relieved from her pain and her many illnesses and cancer, but on the other hand she was stripped from a lifetime of love here with us.   I know she is happy and healthy now and that's exactly why Pat and I made the heart wrenching decisions we did three years ago.  

I like to picture Paige dancing and singing.  I just know she was full of spunk and energy.  I carried her for almost nine full months and the girl never stopped moving!  I'm sure she plays dress up and puts on little shows for her great grandparents in Heaven.  It's these kind of images that get me through.  I love day dreaming about her and I try to picture what she looks like and what her voice sounds like.  I know she is absolutely gorgeous...  I laugh when I think about her voice because I imagine it to be very high pitched and girly.  Love it!  

Paige Jordan, we love and miss you more than we ever thought possible!  Happy glory day baby!!

Paige's 3rd Birthday

My angel turns 3 today.  Instead of my arms she spends this day in the arms of Jesus.  A hard one to swallow but I know she is wonderful hands.  You would think this day would get easier each year, but it only gets harder.  As we experience life with Landon and Mya we start to realize how much we missed out on with Paige.  It never seems fair and I still don't want to accept it, but it's life and I think I'm going to have to.  We talk about our sweet girl with her siblings every day.  Landon prays to his big sister every night and asks Jesus to give her a kiss.  It's the sweetest thing.  Myas face lights up when we say Paige's name as if she understands.  Our children know their big sister I am sure of that.  Today we spent time as a family.  We visited Paige's gravesite, we had a balloon release, we sang Happy Birthday a trillion times, we had yummy pizza for dinner and ended the night with an ice cream celebration.  I bet Paige's ice cream sundae in heaven was delicious!  I cherish the time we spend as a family especially honoring our oldest child.

Paige Jordan,

We love you sweet girl!  We know you watch over us every single day and protect your younger brother and sister.  You continue to impact our lives in so many ways and we live to make you proud.  We hope your birthday in heaven is magical and you celebrate with a big chocolate cake and ice cream.  We love you baby!  Happy 3rd birthday!!!

Love,

Mommy and Daddy

Paige's birthday in pictures:

We started the morning off with a visit to Paige's gravesite and taking her a birthday balloon!

Mya had a little talk with her sister... She just babbled away...

We sent balloons to Heaven for Paige...

Landon and Mya gave their big sister a kiss..

We ended our night with ice cream to celebrate Paige's big day..

and Landon thought it was pretty great!

Happy birthday Paige!