Have Your Way

Just as seasons change so does my attitude.  I have found myself in a slump lately.  I'm getting good at slapping on a smile and tucking my emotions under my sleeve.  Maybe it's because I've gotten so used to it and it's all I know.  Maybe it's because it's easier than allowing my emotions and my grief to overcome me.  Maybe it's because I'm ashamed to feel sad after receiving such a wonderful gift in my Landon.  Maybe it's because Mother's day is fast approaching and I only get to spend it with one of my babies.  I don't know what it is... probably a mixture of them all. 

For the past 16 months I have had the same conversation with God over and over in my head.  I ask so many questions.  I don't get answers.  But I do know that God has been with me everyday for the past 16 months.  He's held my hand through this crazy life I live and through it all I have learned that I am on God's time.  It's His way.  It's the plan that God created for me. 

Today a dear co-worker shared a song with me.  I heard the song and thought to myself this is the conversation I have with God almost everyday.  I think this song is beautiful and I couldn't of wrote my feelings better myself!

Really listen to the words!

(There is 1 part of the song I don't relate to.  It talks about being abandoned by family and friends.  I'm so very lucky because my family and friends have stood by me everyday. )

I continue to put my trust in the Lord.