We Will Never Forget You

Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  It's so heartbreaking that we have to have such a day...  that mom's and dad's around the world have to feel the heartrending pain of losing a child.  A pain that Pat and I know all too well.  A pain that never goes away.  A pain that will be a part of us for the rest of our lives.  A pain that we will never understand.  A pain that can't answer why.  A pain.  An awful pain.  It hurts, but it's a pain I wouldn't trade for anything in the world.  You see without this pain I would never have met my sweet Paige.  That is something I am not willing to give up.  If Jesus could of told me that he would give me a daughter but only for three days.... I would whole heartily live through that pain again.  Those three days with Paige here changed my life forever and I now know love, faith and Jesus much better and on a much deeper level than I could ever imagine.  Paige is our angel in heaven now and I know she watches over all of us... I still can feel her presence.

Today we honor Paige!

I can't help but wonder what Paige is doing in heaven today.  Who are her friends?  What does she look like?  Does she get to wear a bow in her hair in heaven?  So many questions... however I have peace in knowing that my baby girl is in the arms of Jesus today.  She is safe, she is healthy, she is happy.  That is all that matters!   Today we celebrate Paige.  We are thankful she is our daughter.  We are thankful she came into our lives. 

Wishing and praying for the day she will be in our arms again!

In just a few hours we will gather with family and friends to honor Paige in a Walk for Remembrance.  This walk is put together by the SHARE organization.  SHARE has been a large part of our lives since the loss of our baby girl.  They have been a second family to us and have truly carried us through this painful year.  We are honored to walk in Paige's memory and honored to walk along so many families who feel our pain.  We celebrate all of the baby angels today!  (Pictures and more on the walk later today)

Below is what Pat and I submitted for the walk program today....

Sweet Baby Paige,

Just a little over nine months ago you came into this world.  Sadly, a few short days later you had to go and be with Jesus.  We miss you so much everyday and we are doing everything we can to keep your memory alive.  We are so proud of the impact you have left on this world.  Your short life has touched the lives of so many people.  You have taught us all so much about faith, unconditional love and how precious life truly is.  We will forever cherish the three short days we had with you.  We are so thankful that we were able to hold you and kiss you.  Our arms still ache to hold you again and our hearts remain broken.  Not a day goes by that we don’t think about you and wish you were here with us.  We miss you so much and love you with all our hearts.  You will always be our baby girl!

We Love You,

Mommy & Daddy

Precious One

Precious, tiny, sweet little one

You will always be to me

So perfect, pure and innocent

Just as you were meant to be.

We dreamed of you and your life

And all that it would be.

We waited and longed for you to come

And join our family.

We never had the chance to play,

To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.

We long to hold you, touch you now

And listen to you giggle.

I'll always be your mother,

He'll always be your dad.

You will always be our child,

The child that we had.

But now you're gone...but yet you're here

We'll sense you everywhere.

You are our sorrow and our joy,

There's love in every tear.

Just know our love goes deep and strong,

We'll forget you never

The child we had, but never had,

And yet will have forever.

-Author Unknown



We love you Paige!

The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart...no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil.
Isaiah 57:1