I didn't forget!

Yesterday marked my baby's 6th month "Glory Day".  The day she went to Heaven to be with Jesus.  I did not forget.  I know I didn't post yesterday...that was by choice.  The fourth of every month will always be very difficult for Pat and I, however, we are choosing to concentrate on Paige's birth and not her death.  The birth of our daughter was the most miraculous event I have ever been so blessed to be a part of.  It is something I never want to forget.  When Paige went to Heaven she was in my arms and I never felt so useless or helpless in my life.  There was nothing anyone could do to save my daughter and I couldn't do anything to help her.  I can't keep dwelling on that day... my heart breaks all over again and I feel like I have to start back at square one of my healing process.  Paige knows how much her dad and I love her and we want to celebrate her life and be thankful for our sweet little girl.  No, I didn't forget Paige's glory day.. we're just choosing to celebrate Paige's coming into our lives and not when she had to leave. We Love you Paige!

The Cord

Author Unknown

We are connected my child and I

by an invisible cord

Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord

That connects us til birth

This cord can't be seen

By any on earth.

This cord does it's work

Right from the start

It binds us together

Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there

Though no one can see

The invisible cord

From my child to me.

The strength of this cord

 It's hard to describe

It can't be destroyed

It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord

Man could create

It withstands the test

Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone

Though you're not here with me

The cord is still there

But no one can see

 It pulls at my heart

I am bruised... I am sore...

But this cord is my lifeline

As never before.

I am thankful that God

Connects us this way.

A mother and child

Death can't take that away!

On Thursday I have an appointment to check in on Baby #2!  Please keep us in your prayers and pray specifically for our little one to be healthy with a nice strong heartbeat.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed for an ultrasound so that we can maybe find out if it is a boy or girl! 

The LORD will work out His plans for my life--for Your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever. Don't abandon me, for You made me.

Psalm 138:8